So a few days ago I posted a rant-journal of the stuff I've been dealing with, I deleted the post a few hours later because I highly dislike crying out like that. And now I'm going to do the opposite.
The hurt is still there, but it's healing. The discomfort and anxiety is still there, but it's not always going to be. Among all of this pain, humility, and stale frustration. I'm thankful, honored, and really just lost in all of this.
Having been at a dead-end job for three years, this is new territory. I worked my hardest for three years, being in the top five for customer services, knowing product (more so pretending I know), and just doing my job. I received no raise. The people who were recently hired were making more than me. There was no place for promotion because I was too young to make manager. The company isn't appreciative to their employees, so there was nothing there. I know I wasn't the best, and I'm not saying I was. I slacked in plenty of areas, so I wasn't the perfect employee.
I tried a few other jobs, but I held onto this job as backup. And I went back to it.
In Spring this year my mom said there were some spots opening up and asked if I was interested, I said sure. It took a bit until the spots were opened and the company considered candidates. My mom did what mom's do best and talked me up, they didn't do an official interview. They wanted to meet me and discuss a few things, and I had the job. Starting at the end of June.
After that meeting I learned I'd be getting a clothing allowance to get more professional clothes, those of you who read my previous journal will know how I took this. The first was for summer clothes, $200. A couple friends and my mom helped me pick out some clothes.
Then I'd get $200 more for Fall. Between this and that they paid for me to get a haircut and some salon products, that was expensive. When time came for my Fall clothing allowance my boss said she didn't want to do the $200 again. She wanted me to get 8 complete outfits, no matter the price.
This company has invested around $1,000 on me, and that is for nothing that I have done. God has given me favor for this job, and for the people there.
It's a God given favor that I'm so thankful for that I don't know how to even react properly! I'm undeserving for this favor, but God has given it to me anyway, simply because He loves me.
Which, this love and favor isn't just for me. He loves us all, and He wants to bless us all. But of course you need to be willing to let Him be a part in your life.
I'm thankful to God, and my friends who've helped me. ^^